If There Was A Day That Would Cause Me To Drink...

It would be today.

I don't like to complain or whine (though I loooove cheese, haha) because 

I generally dislike the way that people pity you and treat you differently after

they know what's got you down...they overcompensate.

Well...with that said, I'm not going to complain, I'll just say it like it is.

If I were to ever go off the deep end and drink, the last 24 hours would probably have

been the breaking point, so I guess I don't have one! (a good thing I think)...

Anyway, I was in a generally unpleasant mood (to myself) last night and had to work. 

I finally got a little peppier this morning when I was so tired that I couldn't help it.

I slept for a few hours and woke up realizing that I had lots of homework to do.

I worked on my homework and a girl from my ward called and asked if I was 

going to go to FHE tonight...since she is almost literally the only friend I have in my 

ward (and yes, I know that's my fault, I'm just shy) I decided to go since she'd be there.

I stopped my homework, showered and put on some makeup...I looked decent.

She said, I think, 4 words to me...which was introducing her friend to me.

That is all.

I decided that I felt really uncomfortable and didn't know anyone so I went and 

played piano for about an hour, which was a very welcome relief, both because

I really love to play and sing, annnnd I haven't played in literally 5.5 months. 

I then came home and made brownies and did my laundry (both are still in progress)...

Alone.

Sometimes I forget that I'm alone 95% of my time, but nights like tonight, I remember well.

And tomorrow off to Tucson where I get to hang out with my Mom and little younger

brother for a few days (and get a physical...lame). 

I have to say, still, that I am grateful for the few hours each week that I get to spend with my 

sister and my niece, as well as with the sister that I live with. Highlights of my week.